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Okay, so it's been some time..but I'v had a slight motivation to write. It's precisely 1:48am and I can't sleep..which is fine except for the fact that I have a 13 hour day of class tomorrow, starting at the bright and early time of 8:30am.
So here I am in philly, not dead. I only say that for the fact that my communication to many from home has been off and on. I want that to change. Though, I do not update really anymore, I still read everyone's entries. Tonight, I was reading Mel's entry and it reminded me that one my closest friends of all time is leaving...forever come late June. That makes me feel overwelmingly sad for the simple facts that I have not seen much of Mel this year. I mean even when I was home she was very busy with school and work..and now this semester when she is not as busy with school and work, I'm down in philly busy with school. To make everything worse. I can not confidently say that I will get to see her before she leaves. As of now, there are only 3 possible weekends between now and then that I could come home. Easter, Mother's Day Weekend (until sunday afternoon, I will be taking a train back with Brandon, because it's our anniversary.), and June 9th weekend...(brent's birthday) BUT, summer session 1 end the 9th, so I could possibly post-pone working for a few extra days so I could spend some "farewell my dear friend, mel ott" time with her. I guess this will all be decided at a later date.
On other notes, I'm going to be selfish and talk about my life and how it is going. In philly, I go to Moore College of Art and Design. It's a small school..an all girls school, at that. Many who know me would not have expected that one out of me. I'm getting and apartment with my awesome suitemate Kelly, who is practically my best friend here. I also kind of hooked her up with Brandon's...as of this passed weekend ex roommate (Shifty and a few other guys moved out and found another place of their own). Kelly and I do crazy and say crazy things....we are probably the most utterly ridiculous people out of our group of friends...cuzzzz we're all kinds of crazy. :)
And then there's Del, her real name is Danielle, we just call her Del. She looks like Pocahontas. She is my thirsty thursday (not every thursday...i dont have the kind of money) bar buddy. We go to "Bar", this bar down the street..it's one of three bars within a few blocks that we know that will serve us. It's fun stuff.
More school stuff. I've changed my major a few times. I came here as 2D Fine Arts..went to Textiles..then thinking I should try Fashion, everyone kind of laughed telling that they knew I was a Textiles girl from the moment they saw me. So, that's where I'm at now..I'm a Textiles major, and that final switch back gave me the most relieved feeling..I feel comfort with Textiles. I am happy. Next year I start into my major. Out of basics!! YAY! I will also be ahead of my grade by several credits, thanks to being a transfer, Fall semester I have four classes three 6 hour long classes and an art history, when most people will have 6-7 classes. It also makes me overwelmingly happy that I have Mondays and Fridays off..leaving me with a 4 day weekend every weekend. Cheers to that.
So last but certainly not least is my amazing sexy boyfriend, Brandon, yeah him... Brandon and I like to out-do eachother.. I have a lot of fun with him, and I guess you could say that after all this time...I kind of love him too...or am completely and totally head of heels madly in love with that boy...same difference. :) We do have our arguements, but most of them you wouldn't think we are fighting...we fight sarcastically. Sometimes, I feel like he's my best friend. Like on a different level, I tell him absolutely everything and if something is troubling me he is the absolute first person I go to. Things have finally worked themselves out when it comes to us. May 14th will be 1 year this time. I've never really had the desire to celebrate this one, but for some reason I feel compelled to. It's the first time out of three times were everything stayed right. There is no other girls, there is no coke, there is no me being a bitch and ignoring him when he is obsessively in love with me.. A year isnt really that long, and our relationship is so much more intense than many would be at a year, and I think that's because of our past, because of everything we've been through, because we kind of watched eachother grow up and our relationship flourish from a stupid high school relationship into something me. I think it might have something to do with the fact that he kissed me when i have freakishly long hair and braces...but then again, I wouldn't know.
Well now, with all of that said.. and it being 2:26am. I'm going to bed. People should comment and tell me how their lives are going. Update me and shit like that :).
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| Sucks.... |
[11 Mar 2006|05:23pm] |
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wish I had break this week...when all my friends from home have it. :(
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| Long time no talk... |
[06 Mar 2006|09:52pm] |
Taken from Molly.
Your senior year in High School is supposed to be "the best year of your life." Let's see how much you remember:
Year :: 2004-2005
1. Who was your best friend?
Mel, Josh, Erin and Brandon
2. What sports did you play?
senior year was the only year i didn't play sports...i was lazy.
3. What kind of car did you drive?
'94 Honda Civic Ex
4. It's Friday night, where were you at?
Work, Out with friends
5. Were you a party animal?
more so the end of senior year.
6. Were you in the "In Crowd"?
i had friends from every group...
7. Ever skip school?
yea...a few times
8. Ever smoke
Not senior year
9. Were you a nerd?
not really
10. Did you ever get suspended/expelled?
nope
11. Can you sing the Alma Mater?
Nope, but I heard CC's every friday morning.
12. Who was your favorite teacher?
Spong
13. Favorite class?
art classes
14. What was your school's full name?
Red Land High School
15. School mascot?
Patriot
16. Did you go to Prom?
Yes, and it was great <3
17. If you could go back and do it over, would you?
not at all.
18. What do you remember most about graduation?
Me getting stuck with the only teacher who didnt know me and him saying my name wrong. He called me Gina...it's JEN-NA, you fool.
19. Favorite memory of your Senior Year?
Fun times with MEL OTT, or getting back together with Brandon..that could also be catorgorized as fun times with MEL OTT..(she pretty much advised me)
20. Were you ever posted up on the senior wall?
we didn't have one???
21. Did you have a job your senior year?
Elephant and Castle
22. Who did you date?
3 rebounds, a Steve, and back to Brandon
23. Where did you go most often for lunch?
The Art room
24. Have you gained weight since then?
probably not that much..my school's food has laxatives in it..
25. What did you do after graduation?
Drank with my boyfriend..and laid and talked about the past.
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[22 Oct 2005|08:15pm] |
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Today, I've done a lot of thinking. I thought back to one year
ago.. It's kind of weird to think about. One year ago, I was
surrounded by wonderful friends who help me get through the most
painful break up I've ever endured. One year ago, I was on the
rebound. One year ago, I was depressed yet content with what life
had to offer me. I had a lot going for myself..I mean I still do,
just in a different aspect. One year ago, I was in love, but not
loved back.. To think of how things so rapidly turned around so
drastically in only a year. Now I am in love..with the same
person...and loved back as much as he could ever love someone. I
feel alone. I no longer have those friends who once lended
shoulders...not because I pushed them away, but because of natural
occurances.. Clashing schedules, going away for school,
busy-ness. I feel that I want to make new friendships to fill
this void that I have, but unfortunately I am not sticking around here
long enough for it to matter. Now I work harder than I have ever
worked in school...and still busting my ass at work. Now I have
no time for myself..I'm losing sleep, I'm constantly stressed, and
rather lonely. I guess there will always be good with the bad and
vise versa. *shrugs*
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| 215----Philly. |
[12 Oct 2005|12:13pm] |
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So, I'm back from Philly. My weekend/past four days have been
amazing. Friday evening I caught the train down to Philly.
Brandon met me at the train station. He was a sight for sore
eyes. I missed him so much. When we got back to the house,
the guys had gone out for a swim..and it was only Vicki. Brandon
imediately dragged me up to his room. It had been too long...and
it showed (we both pounced eachother.) An hour and 20 minutes
later...we went downstairs and helped them finish off the keg. We
played beer pong. That night we KICKED ASS in beer pong. I
played like I've never played before.. every thing I shot either went
in..or almost went in. "Brandon, I thought you said you are the game." "No, I mean to say I am dating the game." We became undefeated for that night. The shindig died off and by 2-3am people started going home..and to bed.
Saturday, we slept in....or atleast stayed in bed..until 1:30pm.
It was wonderfully. It was raining outside. It felt like it
was part of Jack Johnson's
Banana Pancakes song. I hadnt gotten the chance to sleep in in a long
time. We got up and laid around the house. Ate burgers with
the roomies and watched a movie. It was the perfect "lazy
afternoon". That night we got another keg, played some more Beer
Pong, inwhich Brandon and I lost terribly. He ended up being a
dick about it. Because he was piss drunk. I made sure this
was an early night..so we went to bed around 1ish..We both fell asleep
angry and drunk...which if you are going to fall asleep angry, I
recommend you do it drunk. Because the next morning we woke up in
eachothers arms...remembering our petty feuding the night before, but
not caring. We were over it.
Sunday afternoon was amazing. We went downtown. There was a
festival going on for Columbus Day weekend. We decided to check it
out. I have pictures that I will post from downtown later on
today or tomorrow. We found this little hole in the wall mexican
resturuant and later went shopping on south street. That
afternoon reminded me why it is all worth it in the scheme of
things..it reminded me that he
was worth the rollercoaster ride of these past 4 1/2 years. I had
so much fun with him. Later we went back to the house to watch
the game, and drink a little. After the game(the eagles lost
terrible to the cowboys...and the cowboys suck..i've hated them since
3rd grade) we went over to his see his friends Ken and Wags.
Those two are a trip! We told them to stop by for alittle beer pong
later.. (I insisted to Brandon that we shouldnt be partners anymore
because how seriously he takes the game when he is drunk. He
wrote me down as his partner anyway.) This night was really laid back
and it ended with everyone heading to bed around 12:30 and Brandon and
I watching a movie.
Monday we slept in again. Well atleast laid there..Then went out before
the game. (The Steelers game.) We went over to Ken and
Wags' for the Charger's vs. Steelers game. Which was a really
good game, if i do say so myself. We took it easy again that
night because we had to get up early to make my train. I love sleeping
with Brandon. :)
Tuesday, got up at 8 to make my 8:45 train. Brandon walked me to the
station and we said our goodbyes. It was soo hard to let him go.
I wanted to just stay there forever...in his arms. But I guess it'll
only be a good 2 1/2 weeks until I see him again. Halloween
baby!!! woo. I can't wait.
So, my weekend was freaking awesome..especially since we did the
naughty 7 times. :) *inserts evil grin* ANYWHO! I have to
get to class..
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| GRR! |
[05 Oct 2005|11:37am] |
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UGH! I want Ai to stop mailing me..they know I am not interested
in any of their schools..they should have just taken me off their
mailing list..but ofcoarse, I know that I would have to physically call
and tell them to do so...and that takes time and effort. Time and
effort that I do not have. So in the trash it goes. Oh well.
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[26 Sep 2005|05:58pm] |
I don't feel right. I find myself crying at random moments. I feel as if I have temporarily lost a part of me. Brandon is in philly. I miss him so much and it's only been a day. I now know how Mel feels when Ryan leaves. Fuck. I am so in love with that boy.
On another note, My birthday is Wednesday. It doesn't feel like it though. I just feel as if I have no reason to celebrate let alone anyone to celebrate with.
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[23 Aug 2005|10:22am] |
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie/book/fictional character reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a substance to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. Or at least me.
5. I'll tell you my favorite memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal or plant you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.
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I am so charbroiled from the daytona beach sun. OUCH. It's a beautiful red brown color.. I don't get the flamboyant pink color that many many of my friends with fair skin get.. I get red brown..and it hurts like a mofo. I haven't been burnt in for ever.
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| The final conclusion. |
[15 Jul 2005|01:03am] |
And the conclusion to my health saga...
I was diagnosed yesterday.. after 7 and 1/2 months of being poked, prodded, and studied. I have Minimal Change Disease. A type of kidney disease. It is named "minimal change" because the nephrons appear totally normal under a light microscope. The condition is only seen using an electron microscope, which reveals changes in the Bowman's Capsule in the nephrons. Urine tests also show high protein levels. The cause is unknown and is primarily most commonly seen in little children. I will be put on steriods and endure urine tests (self done) every two weeks and a series of blood tests every 3 months. I will be forced to change my diet and to stay away from certain medicines such as: Advil, Motrin, Asprin, Ibprofin, etc.. There are also the elevated risks of kidney failure in the long run.. But worrying won't get me anywhere I suppose.
I just thought I'd inform anyone.
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[27 Jun 2005|11:45pm] |
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I want it all to end. All of it..Stupid ffing kidneys.
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[23 Jun 2005|10:29pm] |
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I had my surgery Wednesday. I'm really sore from it and probably will be the rest of the week. They don't have me on any strong drugs because they are scared it will mess with my kidneys. I've never really realized how much important my lower back is. I limp around the house because it hurts to bend my knees. It hurts to breathe in or out to heavy, it hurts to laugh, cough, sneeze, yawn, and it hurts when i move to sudden. They better find the answer soon, I can't handle anymore blood tests, urine tests, specialist, and no more surgeries. I've been poked, prodded, and examed. I want it to be over soon. I don't think there could have been worse timing. Then again I don't think there could have been better timing, because who wishes this on themselves. The good thing is i've had people here for me through this. Karie, Brandon, my mom, Mel..
Mom says: Jenna, what ever this is...no matter what the results are...we'll get through it together. If you are on medication and need to change your lifestyle/eating habits, I'll change mine. We can conquer this together, your disease. Promise me, you'll let me help you.
Jenna says: Mom, I'm scared. (almost in tears)
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| Is it bigger than a bread box? |
[15 Jun 2005|02:08am] |
Wow, long time no update.. Things are going fantabulistic.. *knocks on wood*
--I graduated yesterday.
--I have fantastic friends who are amazingly fun to hang out with.
--I fffing love my boyfriend, Brandon..who guess what isn't blowing me
off this time. Infact, things are how they should have been.. I
get to be in love this time around and have it returned.
--Saturday is my graduation party in which I will get to see my nanny,
who watched me when I was little for the first time in years..she was
like a sister to me..best friend even.
--I already recieved $600 in graduation money.
--I love my mommy.
--I really really enjoy this Mango Passion Fruit juice..
--And last but not least.. Sleep...is fucking amazing.
Goodnight.
I hope everyone is well. And..Happy Graduation...to my fellow
Graduates who read this.. (including..Molly, my cedar cliff gangster
dawg--P.S. we will have to hit up Philly sometime again soon. B
and I will be going down sometime in July, I'll let you know incase you
would like to join us.)
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| People can kiss my ass. |
[04 Jun 2005|10:15pm] |
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I learned that you can't rely on many friends for anything. I decided I'm going to stop on relying on people's word..because it sucks to much when they disappoint you. I'm really getting sick of Karie seeming to only having time for Fred.. I haven't hung out with her since prom and she was alone with Fred most of it. He gets to see her nearly every day. She did this with Ryan last year. Seriously, fuck people.
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| quiz thing that erin did. |
[30 May 2005|10:43pm] |
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Jenna
2. Yenna
3. Muffy
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. AssortedFrewt
2. HairyRedEskimo
3. Blueyezgrl13
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Eyes
2. Hair
3. …I don’t know.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Lack of hips
2. Legs
3. Nose
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Hungarian
2. Yugoslavian
3. Italian
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Leprechauns
2. Scary movies.
3. Dark Basements
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Chapstick
2. Writing utensil
3. Sketchbook
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Hoodie
2. Jeans
3. T Shirt
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Cake
2. Ludacris
3. Jack Johnson / G-Love
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Trust
3. Humor
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I never wear white socks
2. I don’t dye my hair
3. I am evil.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes
2. Lips/Smile
3. Hair…brown please.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Sleeping
2. Drawing/Painting
3. Eating
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Get healthy
2. See my boyfriend, Brandon
3. Sleep…beside Brandon.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Art professor
2. Something with advertisement.
3. Freelance Artist/Photographer.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Italy***
2. England
3. Austrailia
THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Caden
2. That’s about it.. I have put much thought into it..
3.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Live in Italy for two years
2. Sell some work
3. Be happy with what I have
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I have an extremely high sex drive
2. I ride my bike and get scars..
3. I fart and burp...a lot.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK:
1. Though sometimes it may not seem that way, I am sensitive.
2. I over analyze boy’s actions.
3. I like to look cute every now and then.
THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Johnny Depp
2. Ewan McGregor
3. Jude Law
THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. you suck
2. at life
3. like whoa.
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[18 May 2005|04:14pm] |
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I'm so happy lately. I'll have my moments..and there are some exceptions, but still.
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